tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-55164207553161848322024-03-04T21:18:36.551-07:00Laurel's Journey In LifeLIVE LAUGH LOVELaurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.comBlogger124125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-63048781124355387002020-08-31T19:21:00.001-06:002020-08-31T19:21:18.888-06:00Overcoming Being Paralyzed With Fear: Aligning My Own Will to Heavenly Father's Will<p> I've had a lot of reflection the past 10 days or so and had experiences that helped me realize what is most important in life. Now I'm not sure why I am being vulnerable again. Maybe it will help one of you or it will be just for me to read back on one day.</p><p>Almost 3 years ago, I started to realize that I was not happy with myself. That smile of mine was often fake. Even though I was surrounded by people, I felt alone. I felt it was just me and a never-ending dark and dreary cloud around me. I felt that something was missing. I realized that I wasn't living up to my end of the bargain to remember Jesus Christ and maintaining that relationship with Him I promised on my baptism day many years ago. </p><p>I wrestled with the thought of coming back to Jesus Christ, but I had that fear. Fear of how on earth He would ever forgive me and the mistakes I've made. I let those thoughts go to the garbage for the next little while and carried on with my life choosing not to let Jesus Christ in.</p><p>In January of 2018 I decided to start anew and live a new life I guess you would say. I decided to let Jesus Christ back in my life. Then all of a sudden, fear crept in again. If you think about it after every good decision, fear always creeps in. There is opposition in all things. I had a lot of fear.</p><p>I knew I had to change, but I didn't know how. I was afraid of changing, because I built my life the way I was living. </p><p>The fears I had were things like, "Will people in the church welcome me back if they ever found out what I was up to? How long will the repentance process be if I decided to try to be in full fellowsip with the church I grew up in? Do I have to be excommunicated then be re-baptized later?" </p><p>All I wanted to do was Heavenly Father's will for me. I knew if I obeyed what He instructs me to do, then it would eventually become my will as well. </p><p>Time passed by then I just decided to talk to my Bishop. I told him everything what I was up to and what I missed. I didn't tell anyone for months that I was working on my repentance process. I wanted to make sure I was doing it for myself and nobody else (I was known as a people pleaser).</p><p>Fear kept on creeping in everyday. I love acronyms. I had 2 choices with fear. Forget Everything And Run or Face Everything And Rise. I ran for so many years. Not necessarily from the church, but from Jesus Christ. I decided I couldn't live like that any longer so I decided to Face Everything And Rise with Jesus Christ.</p><p>I felt The Lord help me throughout the repentance process. His Atonement/Sacrifice is real. The Lord directed me to come back to church, because He knew that is where I would be the most happy. He was right. I still have fears everyday, but in all honesty I know fear doesn't come from Heavenly Father. It comes from the adversary.</p><p>Even though I am still tempted, I try to stick to and remember what makes me the most happy. I have had phenominal friends and family who truly know what I went through and they are there helping me just by listening and just being a good friend. </p><p>Since then, I have gained a lot of faith instead of fear. I have learned that faith and fear cannot coexist together. When I have faith, I don't feel fear. And when I feel fear, my faith is lacking. </p><p>Nothing makes me more happier than to know that Jesus Christ is by my side everyday and helping me along this hard thing called life. I know Heavenly Father hears and answers my prayers as well as yours. </p><p>Heavenly Father has helped me be the person I am meant to be and continuing to help me. I am forever grateful. I know He will provide. He never fails. </p><p>I know The Lord will direct you and your own journey to your happiness. Whatever that may be. You are loved unconditionally by me and especially by Jesus Christ. Never forget that!</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p> </p>Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-30324655341293333832020-06-28T16:59:00.003-06:002020-11-21T21:21:50.698-07:00Facing the Future: My Coming Back to Know Heavenly Father StoryBefore I dive into my story, I just wanted to let you all know that this is my story and my own story only. If you think my story will help those you know, that is great. But please don't go telling them to be just like me in my own journey. For everyone has their own journey to their own destination. :)<br />
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">I served a mission for
the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints in San Diego, California. Little
did I know the hardships that would come my way. I got sick while in the MTC. I
got sent to the ER. They thought I had appendicitis. It was a tender mercy that
my Uncle Brian was in the ER that night. He helped comfort me and I was able to
talk to my parents for a couple of minutes. I had to stay an extra week in the
MTC due to being sick. The MTC had me stay with a different district that was
in the same zone as me. Little did I know that Heavenly Father used me as an
instrument in His hands to help those missionaries. Some of them said I was an
answer to their prayers. When I went to San Diego, things were going well then,
I was sent home 4 weeks later. It was extremely hard to accept it. I got the
opportunity to be a temple worker and work with the sister missionaries at Utah
State. I found it was a tender mercy that one of the sister missionaries I
already knew. We worked together in the MTC. I was home for 6 months. Uncertain
if I would ever go back out. I got comfortable just staying at home, but the
thought of going to school at that time simply didn’t feel right. After much
hard work, I got to go back. I was feeling a lot better and ready to get back
to work in San Diego. <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">Things were great for the
first 2 weeks, then I started to feel my illness coming back. I did all I could
to work through it. 3 months later, after talking with my mission president, we
agreed that my work as a Missionary was complete. It was the most difficult
thing ever. A lot of thoughts were going through my head. What will my family and
friends think of me? What will the church think of me? How can I move forward
and face ahead with not accomplishing what I hoped I would. I remember coming
down the escalator at the SLC airport. Here I was feeling that I let my family
down. My mom was the first person to embrace me. Her words will always stay
with me. She said, “Laurel, we are so proud of you. We love you.” That is all I
needed. I did good for the first 6 months of being home. After those 6 months, I got inside of my head
and believed the adversary when Satan said, your work in the church is done.
You are a failure, because you didn’t finish the 18 months as a missionary. You
are better off away from the church. At the time, I thought those thoughts were
mine. <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">I started to not attend church.
Shortly after, I would be involved in things that I imagine that made Heavenly
Father cry. I would be surrounded by some people that made me believe that
there is no way back to the temple and that Heavenly Father didn’t love me. Here
I was as a missionary 6 months prior telling my investigators that Heavenly
Father loved them unconditionally and I was starting to believe those people
telling me that I wasn’t loved because of my wrong-doings. I was in the wrong
crowd. I sought “happiness” elsewhere. I stopped going to church and stopped
going to the temple altogether. I thought I was happy. Without having to worry
about living the commandments and the covenants that I made with Heavenly
Father. By doing so I was distant from my family. Little did I know at that
time, I have caused much grief and pain for my family. There were barriers. It
was not their fault. It was my doing. Any subject that had to do with the
Church, I didn’t want to be part of. My knowledge of my testimony started to
diminish. I was part of the party scene for a while. I thought I felt free. Little
did, I know at the time I was trapped. I was trapped in the lies of Satan for 4
long years. Lies that I thought were truths. 4 long years of emotional, mental,
physical and spiritual pain, grief and unhappiness which Satan manipulated as
happiness. <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">There was a turning point
in early 2018. As I just stated that I was believing the lies of the adversary.
The breaking point was when the adversary told me I have 2 options. 1. Live
away from the church for the rest of my life or 2. End my life. I found it
extreme. So extreme, that the thought of kneel and pray to Heavenly Father. I
haven’t prayed in so long and felt unworthy to pray. I hesitated, but then I
felt a gentle loving push and kneeled and started to pray. I prayed to Heavenly
Father late that night. I said, “Heavenly Father, I can’t do this anymore. I am
so sorry what I have done. Do you love me? I need to know that you love me. I
need direction. I felt I was in my own Gethsemane.”<o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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When my prayer was over, I just
didn’t move, because I was in tears and exhausted from the possible most
important prayer up to date. Then moments later, I felt the feeling in my
bedroom change. From feeling confusion, sadness, grief and pain, I felt the
love that I was longing for. Heavenly Father said to me, “Laurel. My daughter,
my child, I love you. I need you to come back to the church. You have great
work to do.”<o:p></o:p></div>
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<b>Alma 37:36-37,</b><span class="verse-number"> </span>Yea, and <a href="https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/scriptures/bofm/alma/37?lang=eng#note36a">cry</a> unto God for all thy support; yea, let all thy <a href="https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/scriptures/bofm/alma/37?lang=eng#note36b">doings</a> be unto the Lord, and whithersoever thou goest let it
be in the Lord; yea, let all thy <a href="https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/scriptures/bofm/alma/37?lang=eng#note36c">thoughts</a> be directed unto the Lord; yea, let the affections of
thy heart be placed upon the Lord forever.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<span class="verse-number">37 </span><a href="https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/scriptures/bofm/alma/37?lang=eng#note37a">Counsel</a> with the Lord in all thy doings, and he will direct
thee for <a href="https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/scriptures/bofm/alma/37?lang=eng#note37b">good</a>; yea, when thou liest down at night lie down unto the
Lord, that he may watch over you in your sleep; and when thou risest in the <a href="https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/scriptures/bofm/alma/37?lang=eng#note37c">morning</a> let thy heart be full of thanks unto God; and if ye
do these things, ye shall be lifted up at the last day.<o:p></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">I am grateful for what
Heavenly Father told me that night. That didn’t diminish my fear of coming back
to church. Then I realized what worth is having is hard to get. My heart began
to soften after that night. What helped is that I began to see and feel the
love from my leaders, friends and family. There love was there the whole time.
I was just blind for a long time from seeing anything good.<o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">I was a fence sitter for
a long time. There were times during those 4 years that I thought about coming
back to church. Then Satan would chime in and convince me otherwise. Then I
realized being a fence sitter is literally uncomfortable and it brings a lot
confusion. <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;"> It was hard for me to go to church. But there
was 1 person through her light and Christ-like love that pulled me to church.
Heather Petersen. She served as a relief society President in my ward for quite
some time back in 2017. She was my visiting teacher at the time too. She knew
what my past was like. She loved me anyway. She would often sit with me at
church. She told me that I was loved from Heavenly Father just by the way she
lived. She made me feel welcomed at church. I always looked forward to seeing
her at church. She always offered to
help me in any way that she can. Then I finally decided to make the decision,
okay I am coming back to church full-time because I feel happy at church. The
happiness I felt before I went wayward. 2 days after that decision, Heather
passed away from a tragic car accident. I was distraught. How am I supposed to
face my future in the church without her by my side? <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">I would like to share my
dream I had with her shortly after she passed away. I had a dream I was walking
alone at Provo City Center Temple. I often go on walks to clear things out of
head and when I am trying to figure out things. I had my head down then I
noticed someone was there. I looked up and there was Heather in all her glory.
She said, “Laurel. You can do it. I will be there every step of the way.
Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ are there for you too.” We embraced and then
she left. She said she has work to do. <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">She kept her word in
offering help to me. I often felt her near among other angels in helping me
come back to full fellowship.<o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">D&C 121: 7-9<o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">A week later, I started
the repentance process to get my temple recommend back. I felt the love from my
Father in Heaven, my family, friends and Bishop Manning as I was starting to
make my way back to Heavenly Father’s home which is the temple. <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">In April of 2018, my
sister Alison and I went to the Provo temple. The first time in 4 ½ years since
I entered the House of the Lord. We did a session together. Then when it was my
turn to enter the Celestial Room, I felt a whole lot of love. I knew that Heavenly Father was there with
me. He said, “Laurel, my daughter. Welcome home. I am so proud of you. I love
you.” The Atonement of Jesus Christ is for everybody. It is encouraging and
life-saving and full of mercy. It is not only for repenting and healing; it is
also empowering. With the Atonement of Jesus Christ, we can overcome anything.
We can overcome grief, pain, uncertainty, sadness, job losses or whatever else
it may be. When things seem to always go wrong in our lives, just know that
Heavenly Father never stops working to make our lives better. We go through
hard times so we may be purified in order to meet our Heavenly Father one day
and be able to embrace Him. <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">James E. Faust said,<o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">“The Divine Shepherd has
a message of hope, strength, and deliverance for all. If there were no night,
we would not appreciate the day, nor could we see the stars and the vastness of
the heavens. We must partake of the bitter with the sweet. There is a divine
purpose in the adversities we encounter every day. They prepare, they purge,
they purify, and thus they bless.”<o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">Atonement: <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">Without the Atonement, I
would think it would be impossible to face my future. What a great gift from
our Savior Jesus Christ to go through what He went through, so we may have a
happy future. <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">Since coming back to the
temple, I have received many blessings from serving in my calling and in the
temple. There are many times that the adversary slips in and tempts me to give
it all up. He likes to remind me of my wrong doings almost every day, but I
choose Heavenly Father’s side every time. Why? Because true Happiness comes
from living the Gospel principles. Satan knows he already lost. Church leaders
have taught us that the victory is already won by Heavenly Father and His
followers. Satan knows of the goodness we have done in the pre-earth life, so
he will do anything he can do to us from succeeding. I hope that we choose and
continue to choose Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. For they are the true
leaders when it comes for us to face our future. They will never lead us
astray. <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">We have the opportunity
to close the door on past failures, disappointments, pain, grief, and
unhappiness. We need not dwell on past failures. Remember the lessons of the past,
they prepare us to face the challenges of the future. The secret to your future
is hidden in our daily routines. <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">Let us help each other
face the future with light, service, compassion and Christ-Like love. Heavenly
Father’s plan is the plan to follow. You are always worthy to pray. You are always
worthy to receive a blessing. You are always worthy to apply The Atonement in
your lives. Why? Because you have the ultimate divine title of Divine Son or
Daughter of Heavenly Father. Have we received His Image in our countenances? He
is counting on us to help each other back to His presence. What greater role or
calling. You are doing better than you think you are. Please don’t be so hard
on yourself. You are always loved. <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">Choose how to live today
that will help us to face the future with faith, hope, charity, confidence and
love. It is okay to ask Heavenly Father and ask Him to assist you with facing
your future. The Lord has a role in each of our lives. We need to trust Heavenly
Father. He knows us personally and knows us by name. He is aware and wants to
help us. He is interested in YOUR future and who we are becoming. There is a
saying that says, Endure to the End. Although that is something good to live
by, I like to change 1 word in that phrase. Enjoy to the End. The Plan of
Salvation teaches us that this life is not the end. There is no end. So, we
definitely have a marvelous future to face, enjoy and look forward to. A future
of glory and forever happiness with our loved ones and Heavenly Parents. <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: small;"> Some key points I learned
about facing the future: </span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-size: small;">1. There is nothing to be afraid of. With Heavenly
Father and Jesus Christ by our side and The Holy Ghost as our constant
companion, we are always led to the righteous path.</span></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">2. Trust Heavenly Father.
He knows better. He knows the way.<o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">3. If you feel stuck or
something in life didn’t go as planned. Please don’t fear. For Heavenly Father
has something greater in store for you.<o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">4. Prayerfully prepare
today for your future. So that one day, your future self will thank you for
what you have done today. <o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;">5. Please don’t let pain
and grief from your past stop you from facing the future. One of the
adversary’s tactics to get us down is to constantly remind us of the negative,
painful things that happened in the past. We are much stronger than he is. We
can always conquer evil.</span></h1>
I know Heavenly Father
knows you and loves you. It is my prayer that each of us will face our own
futures with the help of Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and the Holy Ghost.
Let us help each other to our divine future in glory living with our Heavenly
Father as our ultimate goal. The Gospel is my happy place. It is what gets me
through hard times and be able to look to the future with excitement and joy. I
hope it is the same for you as well. Please believe me when I say you are not
forgotten.<br />
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<span style="font-size: small; font-weight: normal;"> “Don't you quit. You keep walking. You keep trying. There is help and happiness
ahead. Some blessings come soon, some come late, and some don’t come until
heaven; but for those who embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ, they come. It
will be all right in the end. Trust God and believe in good things to come.”<o:p></o:p></span></h1>
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<span style="font-weight: normal;">-Jeffrey R. Holland</span></div>
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<br />Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-90908925189082370382018-04-08T15:25:00.000-06:002018-04-08T15:25:04.284-06:00PerspectiveHere I am on a beautiful yet chilly Sunday afternoon trying to put my feelings into words. Life has been hard lately. More often than not I feel trapped or stuck when I am going through hard things. I am sure many of us have felt this way.<br />
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The best word to describe this year for me so far is Perspective. A lot of hardships that happened in my life has put things into perspective. For example, I have two friends pass away this year in two separate car accidents.<br />
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Perspective #1. <b>Live </b>everyday fully. We don't know if there will be a tomorrow.<br />
Perspective #2. <b>LOVE </b>others regardless of who they are.<br />
Perspective #3. <b>Laugh </b>with others for it makes us all feel better.<br />
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<b>Live</b>. What does it mean to truly live? I have been thinking a lot about this. The way I look at it is pretty simple. Live in such a way that your life may be something you are proud of. It is just fine to be proud of yourself. No shame in that. I choose to live my life with service. For that is what brings me happiness and joy. I tend to text people to come to mind to see how they are doing to show that I care.<br />
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<b>Love. </b>Love is a big topic. What do you think about when you hear the word love? Is it something with a person of interest? Is it a chick flick that you tell everyone about? Is it loving people no matter who they are like Jesus Christ would? Love to me is important. I make sure to tell the people I love, that I love them so they know. Never assume that people already know your love for them. Tell them. Words of affirmation can go a long way. I believe love can go a long way. It can change so many lives for good. Love and Kindness reminds me of a simple lyric from the musical Wicked. <b>"Because I knew you, I have been changed for good."</b><br />
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<b>Laugh. </b>Laughter is simply the best medicine. It has helped me in many hard situations in my life. Life is meant to me enjoyed, not endured. Let's all have a happy time together and laugh together. That changes things.<br />
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I have come to realize that it is okay if life is hard. Hard things shapes us for the future. We have two options when it comes to dealing with hardships. There are two types of fears. The first one is <b>Face Everything and Rise. </b>The second one is <b>Forget Everything and Run. </b>It is easy to feel just wanting to forget our hardships and pretend it isn't there. Just think of it. If we face our difficulties and rise, we have been changed for good. We are born as strong human beings. It has been this way from the beginning of time.<br />
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I am grateful for trials. Not because they are desirable. Only because they help and shape us to become the people who we are meant to be.<br />
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May we strive to reach out more to those who need a helping hand. Live more. Love more. Laugh more.<br />
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Love,<br />
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Laurel<br />
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<br />Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-43772162797990399572018-01-27T11:05:00.001-07:002018-01-27T11:06:13.642-07:00This Is My YearTowards the end of 2017, I was thinking that 2018 is going to be the best one yet. I felt it within my bones that 2018 was going to be unforgettable. Unforgettable in a way that all sorts of good things were coming my way.<br />
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Now 2018 is here and it has been the hardest month of my life. I am dealing with health problems that have scared me. I know that I am in good hands to get things taken care of. Yet, that doesn't eliminate my fears with my health.<br />
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Then on January 15th, my dear friend, Heather passed away from a car accident. I was in shock, denial and upset that she was taken away from us here on earth. The only thing that keeps me going is that I know she is with Heavenly Father and is at peace.<br />
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Last week was a week of many lessons. Love is the center of everything. Love is bigger than any fear. There was a quote in the movie Soul Surfer. <b>"I don't know why terrible things happen to us sometimes, but I have to believe something good is going to come out of this."</b><br />
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How true is that quote? It is very common that we all have trials. Sometimes we don't know why certain things that happen to us. But something that I do know is that Heavenly Father is aware and there are lessons to be learned. <b>And that in itself is a gift</b>.<br />
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This is my year. Yes it has been a rocky start, but I know this year is going to be a good one. Why you ask? Because I choose to make it a good one. I am not going to wait around for others to make it good. I am in charge of making it my year.<br />
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Even though I've had setbacks, I have decided that losing myself in serving others is the best way to make it my year. I've noticed that trying to be positive is the way to go. To notice the simple good things in life. To seek the good in others and to see others the way God sees them. A smile can go a long way. And that it why this year is my year. <b>Live, Laugh, Love.</b><br />
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<br />Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-9388455502959640992018-01-06T19:11:00.000-07:002018-01-06T19:11:09.893-07:00This Is MeGrowing up, I always wanted to "fit in." To be part of the cool, popular kids. After awhile I noticed that in order to fit in, I had to alter myself. To pretend to be somebody I wasn't.<br />
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This became a habit. I moved around quite a bit as a kid. It was hard for me to show others the true Laurel, because I was afraid that people wouldn't like me. This was eating me inside. It was a slow death. I was losing sight of myself and all I knew was to be something I wasn't to "fit in." Only few friends and my family knew me.<br />
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After awhile, there were people who knew how to knock down the walls around me and showed me that I can trust them. They know who they are. I am eternally grateful for them.<br />
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Now I am here to tell you that I am proud of who I am. People may take it or leave it. I am done pretending someone I am not just so that I may feel a sense of belonging. It doesn't work that way. I have learned that we don't need to apologize for who we are. If people have a problem for who we are as individuals, it is their problem, not yours. Be true to who you are and the right people will come along.<br />
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People often ask me how I would describe myself. Here are some things that make up Laurel.<br />
-Loving, compassionate, caring, good listener, funny, loyal, a fighter<br />
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-Comedy Improv, sports, singing in the car, dancing like nobody is watching, tell people jokes. The list goes on, but you got the gist.<br />
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I have come a long ways to actually figure out myself. Would I trade all the hurt and pain I went through to get to where I am today? No. Why you may ask? Because it has shaped me into the person I am today.<br />
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Now you, yes you. The one reading this. I want to tell you that you are worth it and are enough. Be proud of who you are. There is no shame whatsoever. Life is hard, but you are a strong fighter and will come out on top. Invite others to be part of your life. Show them love and let them love you.<br />
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These lyrics from The Greatest Showman puts all of my feelings into words. Read it carefully and know that you belong and that you are glorious.<br />
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And I know that I deserve your love<br />There's nothing I'm not worthy of<br />When the sharpest words wanna cut me down<br />I'm gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out<br />This is brave, this is proof<br />This is who I'm meant to be, this is me</div>
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<br />Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-64806130588963343252017-11-17T15:29:00.004-07:002017-11-17T15:29:43.721-07:00You Can Do Great Things<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Often times has human beings, we tend to underestimate ourselves and the abilities we have. I am an expert at this. I'll admit that I question my greatness more often that not. Everyone has greatness to offer in this world. People may tell you over and over of how awesome your greatness is. Speaking of personal experiences, that greatness won't be able to come to life unless YOU believe that you have greatness to offer. <span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;">If we are to </span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;">do</span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;"> </span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;">great</span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;"> </span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;">things</span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;"> </span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;">we must always be motivated to take bold risks. If</span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;"> </span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;">you</span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;">'re feeling timid or uncertain, find the inspiration to</span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;"> </span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;">do</span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;"> </span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;">what</span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;"> </span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;">you</span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;"> </span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;">are meant to</span><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;"> </span><span id="yui_3_10_0_1_1510955635945_117" style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;">do.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; line-height: 16px;">The following lyrics are from the movie, Prince of Egypt. I know that these lyrics speak the words that I've been looking for to say for so long. This describes what people may go through everyday in life. Having that fear then rising up on top to do great things in this lifetime.</span></span><br />
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In this time of fear<br />When prayer so often proved in vain<br />Hope seemed like the summer birds<br />Too swiftly flown away<br />Yet now I'm standing here<br />With heart so full I can't explain<br />Seeking faith and speaking words<br />I never thought I'd say</div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">We are not here on earth to fail. If you feel you have failed, try again. Awhile ago, I was talking to a friend of mine about some concerns about succeeding in different things. He showed me this video that Will Smith put out. He was talking about not being afraid to fail and not being scared to show your greatness. That video has changed my life my friends. I am here to tell you that YOU, yes YOU, YOU have greatness. You just gotta believe in yourself. Go forward with a smile on your face and hope in your eyes and go after that greatness and do something great today!</span></div>
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Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-44966314868076234032017-11-09T20:27:00.000-07:002017-11-09T20:27:52.888-07:00Jesus Christ KnowsOften times when things are hard, I just want to give up on things and call it quits. This is how my younger self mind set would be like.<br />
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Over the years, I have learned that giving up is not an option. Heavenly Father didn't send me down here to quit. But to keep trying. One of my favorite quotes is from Jeffrey R. Holland. It says:<br />
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“Don't you quit. You keep walking. You keep trying. There is help and happiness ahead. Trust God and believe in good things to come.”</h1>
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Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-35543598547370232362017-08-24T21:15:00.000-06:002017-08-24T21:16:45.704-06:00I Am Me and That Is OkayI don't know what I am going to talk about so I will just start typing of what comes to mind. There are times in life where we may ask ourselves, " Am I enough? Do I have to change the way I am to please others? Do I have worth as a human being?"<br />
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As many of you know, I fight depression and anxiety everyday. This has gotten me into trouble with school before. Having no motivation and not caring about school is what my days at BYU-Idaho were like. I was not myself. I wasn't social as I used to be.<br />
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Fast forward, here I am a student at UVU. My 3rd university. I tend to think sometimes, I should have graduated college long time ago. Then I realized and told myself something that changed my life forever. This phrase came out of nowhere. My thoughts said, "Laurel. <b>You are progressing. Do not compare yourselves to others. Everyone has a different journey than you. Live it to the fullest and you will be happy."</b><br />
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And I thought to myself, whoa. I have been tearing myself down all these years and not really realizing it. I should pay more attention to my thoughts. Who cares if some people your age graduated college and have a nice career. It's okay to not be like others. Be yourself and everything will work out fine.<br />
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Another thing I learned is that you do not have to change yourself to please others. Be true to who you are. Don't hide that sweet spirit within you.<br />
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Everyone has great worth. A lot of people tend to put themselves down a lot. Things happen. You, yes you who is reading this, you have great value. Don't let others convince you otherwise. Everyone has something to offer in this world. There is so much good out there. You just may have to look for it and it may take time. But if you really want to see the good, it will be shown to you. Smile. Hug. Live. Laugh. Love.<br />
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Do not give up. You keep trying. Fight the fight. The fight may take awhile to win, but I assure you, you will come out on top. The worlds need you, because nobody can live up to you as yourself. Once again, I repeat <b>You are progressing. Do not compare yourselves to others. Everyone has a different journey than you. Live it to the fullest and you will be happy.</b><br />
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<br />Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-68820648994037326732016-12-11T20:16:00.001-07:002016-12-11T20:16:56.592-07:00Facing The GiantsI am going to write about Facing the Giants. No, not about the movie. About our own personal "giants."<br />
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I can't speak for anyone else, but I can speak for myself. Growing up, I had many giants in my life. One of the biggest giants I had was to believe in myself. Believe that I, Laurel have self worth. That I belong and that I am loved. </div>
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It also took me awhile to learn how to stand up for myself, because I don't like confrontation. Once, I learned how to stand up for myself, many experiences came about where I had to stand up for myself. Whether it was to stand up for my beliefs, leaving a class where they showed a really bad movie or turning down a bribe of money to say bad words. The list goes on.</div>
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There were plenty of times where I had to face giants. The biggest one out there is Satan. He is the biggest Giant of all. He is the master of lies and they are not for our own benefit. He doesn't want us to be happy. He is the one that creeps the bad self worth thoughts in everyone's minds. I have often asked myself, how do I overcome this big giant in my life? How can I show him that he will lose the fight every time? </div>
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Another way I defeat my giants is that I remind myself to hold on Laurel. The light will come. </div>
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Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-61607598607997132662016-04-10T09:59:00.004-06:002016-11-11T11:29:26.680-07:00LIVE LAUGH LOVE!!Live Laugh Love. You may notice that these three words all start with the letter L. But it has a whole new meaning. These three words have changed my life for the better. There is a quote that involves these words. "Live every moment. Laugh often. Love beyond words." Of course this is a simple quote, but if you ponder after awhile you might figure out how it can help and change people for the better. It helped me greatly when I took that quote into action. Lets break it down.<br />
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First is LIVE. When I was younger, I thought that life wasn't important until I experienced some difficulties that caused me to get sick a lot. It was hard to bear. I thought I was alone and that nobody was understanding of what I was going through. It reached to the point where I had to ask God for help..which I should have done in the first place. This is where my biggest lesson I ever had began. I learned not to feel bad for myself. It lasted for awhile and I was just feeling miserable. Nothing was getting better with that. So after awhile, I learned to be happy of what I was going through. Not that it was desirable, but of what I may have learned from it. Trials are tough, but with the help and Love from God, it can make our trial(s) easier to endure. Living every moment has changed my life. Life is short. So I decided by doing good deeds for other people are very important and it teaches us to LIVE every moment.<br />
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Second is LAUGH. I believe that Laughter is the best medicine for anything. It creates a good time. Sometimes I can't stop laughing to which the point my ribs hurt and I can't breathe. What do you think about the word laughter? I hope its good, because its the best thing ever in my opinion. Especially when you know of someone that has an infectious laugh which makes it even better. By Laughing everyday or often, it creates a beautiful thing for life. It sure does make life easier to live and helps our trials a lot. I love laughter.<br />
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Third is LOVE. What do you think about when you hear the word Love? Some of you may think of your significant other, family, friends, or even chick flick movies. Whenever I think about love, of course I think about the sappy love there is, but I also think of loving people beyond measure no matter who they are. It changed everything for me, when this became a habit. I believe that this good habit will never leave me, because its just who I am. I love all people. Its a beautiful feeling to love them. People are my drug. I am addicted and I love to be around them which creates my love for everybody. That might sound strange, but its so true. By having love for people and wanting them to have joy in their lives is life changing. There is good to be seen in everyone. Imagine what this earth would be like if people started to spread more love to one another. I often imagine what it would be like, but until the contention is gone, I just keep smiling and say Life is full of amazing opportunities that we can be part of. Life is short so might as well make it amazing and have love towards other people no matter who they are.<br />
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Love, LaurelLaurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-39127708054097335152015-10-12T19:44:00.000-06:002015-10-12T19:47:40.328-06:00Knowing<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">Knowing. It is more than the phrase, "I think." I like to share things that I Know.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">I know that a smile is a curve that sets everything straight.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">I know that families can be together forever. It is a comforting feeling to know that.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">I know that God and Jesus Christ loves us and knows what is best for us in our lives.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">I know that music is what brings people from different walks of life together.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">I know that I can't please everybody, but its ok. There is opposition in all things right?</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">I know that my brothers and sisters are perfect fit for me. I can't get enough of them.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">I know that my parents love me.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">I know that my friends accept me even though I have a upbeat "crazy" personality...lol.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">I know that all of you are amazing and wonderful.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="color: #222222;"><span style="line-height: 18.4799995422363px;"><br /></span></span>I know that laughter is the best medicine for anything.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><br />I know that judging a book by its cover won't get you anywhere.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I know nature is a way that God tells us He is there for us.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I know that our loved ones are always there for us.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">I know that LIVE LAUGH LOVE has a lot of meaning to me.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">I know it is important to tell people that you love them</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="color: #222222;"><span style="line-height: 18.4799995422363px;"><br /></span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">I know that I love all of you!</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, Tahoma, Helvetica, FreeSans, sans-serif; font-size: 13.1999998092651px; line-height: 18.4799995422363px;">Love, Laurel</span>Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-19372867548918346032015-10-04T21:24:00.000-06:002016-12-11T08:24:34.772-07:00My Invisible Illness<br />
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You are probably wondering what I am going to write about. Just to get it out of the way, I don't want any sympathy. This subject has been on my mind for awhile. I felt I should write about it with high hopes it helps at least 1 person out there. Here we go.<br />
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I titled this blog, "My Invisible Illness," because I want to talk about my invisible illness. Now you may have some idea what I am talking about. Yes, I am going to talk about my anxiety and depression and what I learned throughout my journey since I've been diagnosed.<br />
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I want to say it was my 2nd year in college at BYU-Idaho. As I look back, I started to lose interest in everything I was interested in. I didn't like school. I wasn't motivated. I wasn't social like I used to be. I was VERY dependent on others. I didn't realize this all until I was told of how my body language was. On my off-track, my family suggested I get evaluated. I agreed.<br />
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When I was told I have anxiety and depression, I fell apart. I thought that my world was turning and that I was weak. For the longest time, I looked at anxiety and depression as a weakness. I felt that all my strength was gone. There were and are days where I wake up in the morning not wanting to do anything. My anxiety makes me feel really sick time to time. But no one knows that unless I make it known. I look fine on the outside, but in reality, my anxiety likes to hide.<br />
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As time went on, I tried many different medications to see what would work best for me. My life was like a roller coaster for quite awhile. By the time I went back to school, I was still new to this. My motivation was still gone in my school work. It got me into trouble with my grades. It came to a point where my BYU-Idaho days were over before I graduated. (No I didn't get kicked out).<br />
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I was then trying to figure out where I can finish my schooling. Was it going to be Utah State University or Utah Valley University? Nothing seemed like anything was falling into place. Then long story short, I got the answer to serve as a missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. It was very overwhelming, because I knew I needed/wanted to serve. My anxiety kicked in when hearing how hard and mental taxing missions can be. I got called to the California San Diego Mission. I was excited to return to my "home" state.<br />
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Between the time of receiving my mission call and entering the Missionary Training Center on September 19, 2012, I got lots of help from my therapist in preparation of dealing and coping with my anxieties and depression on the mission. I felt I was prepared for what was ahead. I was ready to go.<br />
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I was set to be in the MTC for 3 weeks. But they had me stay an extra week due to getting sick. That really sky-rocketed my anxieties. I had no medication with me at the time. I got to San Diego around mid October. My anxiety and depression got worse. I felt that I was a failure. I felt sick all the time. I got sent home 5 weeks later from when I got to San Diego.<br />
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I was home for 6 months to get on medication and more help from my therapist. I felt better than ever. I went back to San Diego to finish my mission. I had 16 months more to serve. Things were going so well. I was happy. Miracles were happening. Then I noticed things were starting to fall apart about 1 1/2 months after returning to the mission. My anxiety was getting worse. I didn't know why. I didn't notice any triggers. It was just there. I went home again from the mission after being there 3 months.<br />
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When I got home, I felt I was at the bottom of the pit. I was told in a blessing that I served all the time The Lord needed me to. It took me 1 full year to not feel guilty about not finishing my mission like I thought I would. Then, I learned a valuable lesson.<br />
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Anxiety and depression doesn't define who you are. Don't let it take over your life. I let it take over mine for awhile and it wasn't very pleasant. It doesn't make you weak. I learned it is all about our attitudes towards it. Let me show you. Since the letter "A" is the first letter in the alphabet, I will put a 1 next to it. Now where does the letter "T" fall in the alphabet? Do it for the rest of the letters.<br />
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A: 1<br />
T: 20<br />
T: 20<br />
I: 9<br />
T: 20<br />
U: 21<br />
D: 4<br />
E: 5<br />
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<b>As you can see, all the numbers add up to 100. Attitude is everything. I have learned that it helps to strive to be positive while having anxiety/depression. Some days are harder than others. Would I change having anxiety/depression? No. Why you might ask? Because it has helped me be the person I am today. It builds character. It gives me the opportunity to help others who may battle with the same thing. It helped me have more compassion and love towards everyone. That is just who I am. I wouldn't change all the hard times I went through. </b><br />
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<b>For those that might be reading this, know that you are loved and not alone. You are never alone. If you feel that you need help, allow others to help you. It will get better. You are strong. You are a fighter. Keep fighting. Always remember that.</b><br />
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Love,<br />
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Laurel<br />
<br />Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-5341249030022994942014-10-12T22:04:00.001-06:002014-10-12T22:06:15.373-06:00Love and HappinessA dear friend of mine taught me many things in life. The thing that she taught me most was that I am loved. I didn't believe her at first. I felt inadequate in many ways. As soon as I realized I had my guard up, I had to find a way to put it down. I had to humble myself and believe that I am loved by my family, friends, Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father. I want to pass on the love to whoever is reading this.<br />
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You my friend are loved. Many people care about you. You are smart, beautiful, talented, and fun to be around. You are worth it. Whenever you feel alone, there is always our loving Heavenly Father that is near you that will carry your load. There are always people around you that care about you and want to help. They will listen and help you in any way they can if you let them.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #141823; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">What do you think about when you hear the word Love? Some of you may think of your significant other, family, friends, or even chick flick movies. Whenever I think about this word, I think of loving people beyond measure no matter who they are whether I have met them or not. It changed everything for me, when this became a habit. I believe that this good habit will never leave me because its just who I am. I love all people. Its a beautiful feeling to love them because everybody is a Child of God. People are my drug. I am addicted and I love to be around them which creates my love for everybody in the world. That might sound strange, but its so true. Imagine what this earth would be like, if people started to spread more love to one another. I often imagine what it would be like, but until the contention is gone, I just keep smiling and say Life is full of amazing opportunities that we can be part of. Life is short so might as well make it good and have love towards other people.</span><br />
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"The greatest degree of inner tranquility comes from the development of love and compassion. The more we care for the happiness of others, the greater is our own sense of well-being."</div>
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Also, I believe the first step to be truely happy is to first be happy with ourselves. I find it sad that some people are not happy with who they are and that they don't realize how much great worth they are. Yes, I will admit that I had a tough time for awhile being happy with myself. With the help with many people, they helped me realize that it is important to be happy with myself. </div>
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This is one of my favorite quotes of all time,</div>
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"Happiness uplifts you.</div>
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Happiness fills your heart, your mind, and your soul</div>
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Happiness gives you the strength you need</div>
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Happiness is a great feeling that</div>
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Enters your mind</div>
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Happiness takes the sorrow away</div>
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Happiness fills you life with joy</div>
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Happiness makes you feel happy, excited,</div>
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And thrilled</div>
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Happiness warms your heart</div>
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It gives you a sense of relief</div>
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Happiness welcomes you</div>
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Happiness can be seen by a smile</div>
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And in your eyes</div>
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Twinkling with shine</div>
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Happiness is a very beautiful feeling</div>
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Which allows you to enjoy</div>
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Every day to the fullest"</div>
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Until next time,<br />
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Laurel<br />
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<br />Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-24779746820503515422013-11-16T22:46:00.001-07:002013-11-16T22:46:39.491-07:00Happiness is...Happiness is...<br />
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Seeing my youngest brother be the fan of the game at a Volleyball match.<br />
Meeting new people and befriending them.<br />
Going to sporting events/Playing the sports I love<br />
Flowers of all kind<br />
Seeing the first snow of the season on the mountain top<br />
Seeing couples so happy around each other.<br />
The ocean and how peaceful it really can be.<br />
Long walks on the beach or hiking<br />
Stopping and thinking of how I am truly blessed with everything I have<br />
The love I feel from Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ<br />
Watching the sunrise/sunset over the valley/ocean and reflecting on life.<br />
Giving and receiving hugs<br />
Laughing endlessly with my family.<br />
Having a place to live<br />
Finding joy in my journey through life.<br />
Learning from inspired people<br />
Smiling at strangers<br />
Dancing in the rain<br />
Snowball fights<br />
Building igloos/Making Snow Angels<br />
Filling the adrenaline rush from Roller Coasters. I love Six Flags.<br />
Talking with friends and just listening to them<br />
Accomplishing my goals<br />
Funny jokes<br />
Phones: So that we may talk with loved ones who live far away<br />
Living each day to the fullest.<br />
Loving and accepting people beyond measure!<br />
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*I can go on and on for days, but I won't. What brings you happiness?<br />
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Live, Laugh Love<br />
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<br />Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-56013028734831754732013-11-10T17:51:00.002-07:002013-11-10T17:51:34.956-07:00God's Will For Me<span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: arial, sans-serif; font-size: 12.727272033691406px;">So, I was called to the California San Diego Mission. I am so grateful I got to serve there. I was healthy up until a week into the MTC. I entered September 19, 2012. I had coughing attacks and a really bad cold. In fact, I left 1 week later to San Diego than everybody else did. I was a mess. I wasn't happy to stay an extra week. The Lord knew I would, but I was asking why. Why do I have to stay? Of course I was sick, but in God's will, he has sent me to help a district that was struggling. Talk about a very humbling experience.</span><br />
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Having been sick in the MTC caused my anxiety to go on full force. I did the best I can to be the missionary that would make Heavenly Father proud. My anxiety caused my body to just ache and not feel good 24/7. I went to the doctor's and that kinda helped. A month later into the mission field, I was on a conference call with my doctor back home, my parents and my Mission President. I was very hesitant to be on the phone fearing what would happen. Would I be sent home? Would this be it?</div>
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I had many miracles with my 2 trainers that confirmed that I needed to stick it out and continue in the mission field. Sister Hudson and Sister Riggs really cared for me. I was happy that I got an answer that I needed to stay. Then about a week later, anxiety got the best of me. I prayed about whether I should stay or not. I got the answer I needed to go home and get on meds so I can be the missionary that Heavenly Father sent me out to do. So I went home on November 12, 2012. </div>
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It was quite the transition. I felt pain and sorrow when I had to take off my badge. I was afraid of people questioning why I was home. I felt like I was a failure up until I realized that Heavenly Father doesn't send us to fail. I had the 100% desire to return to my mission. I knew I wasn't done. So I thought to myself, "What can I do to keep that desire there?" First off, instead of going to the singles ward, I ended up being in my home family ward. Then the 2nd day I was home, I got called to be a youth Sunday School teacher. I was so grateful. Then I got to spend two 12 hour days with the sister missionaries here in Logan, UT. Biggest blessing was that I was called to be a temple ordinance worker twice a week. I loved it so much. That alone has strengthened my testimony. There was a tough patch when I was home. I just got comfortable staying home and was thinking of going back to school. Every time I thought of school, I had a sick feeling to my stomach. So I knew at that point I needed to go back on a mission.</div>
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6 months has passed! Guess what, I got better and returned to my own mission. Boy was I thrilled. I made it through the hardest 6 months of my life. So I went back and saw missionaries that I served with. The reunion with Sister Riggs was one that I will never forget. Pure happiness. So I got two more companions. Sister Brown and Sister Bishop. I love them so much. They knew how to make me laugh and smile. They are heaven sent. I was finally feeling that I was the missionary that I was meant to be. Then about a month passed and my anxiety was starting to come back. I couldn't focus on the studies. I couldn't stay awake. I couldn't even stay asleep at nights. It was a real downer. Not going to lie on that one. I just went on. I made it through 2 transfers before I felt that something wasn't right. Little did I know the P-Day at Sunset Cliffs was going to be my last. We went there to say goodbye to other missionaries. Little did I know, I would be one of those. The weekend before I left, I felt impressed to call President Clayton. He had an impression that something was wrong too. I told him of what was going on then we came to conclusion that I my mission was done. I found out the next Monday that I was to leave on Tuesday. I held it together until I was at the airport to say goodbye to President Clayton and Sister Clayton. I lost it. I cried my eyes out. I was just heart broken and confused. I never thought I was going to be sent home at all in the first place let alone twice.</div>
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When I was released, my Stake President gave me a blessing and said that I accomplished everything that Heavenly Father has sent me forth to do. I was just thankful to hear that. When I got home, I said a prayer prior to take off my badge for the last time. I never felt so much peace, love and comfort from Heavenly Father. It is the feeling I will never forget. I accept that it is the Lord's will for me to be home right now. I am so humbled that the Lord truly knows our path in this life and what we need to accomplish to build up His Kingdom. As we come to accept the Lord's will for us, it will soon be our own will as well. That's when the puzzle is complete. As I look back at the trials and good times on my mission, I wouldn't change a thing. I am grateful for everything that happened. Heavenly Father knows us all and ways to become the sons or daughters of God we are meant to become.</div>
Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-85262782959822655452013-10-05T13:40:00.001-06:002013-10-05T13:41:01.097-06:00Enjoy! My life in a very small nutshell.<div style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">
Promise to not lie or erase any of these questions?Yes</div>
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Don’t tell me lies, so where’s your significant other?Don't have one</div>
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Last thing to disappoint you? I rarely get disappointed or mad</div>
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Think back to June. Do you remember who you liked? No</div>
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Do you still like that person?N/A</div>
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What do you do when you have a bad day?Listen to music</div>
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Do you care what people think about you?Nope, not really</div>
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Is it usually easy for someone to make you smile?YES</div>
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Are you planning on going to college? In the process of transferring</div>
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Are your friends just like you?Not exactly like me</div>
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Would you ever get a tattoo?Hmmm, better not. Don't like needles.</div>
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Spell your name without an A:Lurel</div>
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Do you like hugs?I love hugs</div>
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What are you listening to?The Vacuum</div>
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Has anybody ever told you that you have pretty eyes? Yes they have </div>
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Anything you’re avoiding?No</div>
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Last time you were truly upset? Don't get upset often</div>
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Does everyone deserve a second chance?It depends on the situation</div>
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Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?No, I love my Popsy</div>
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Are you emotionally strong? Does not crying in movies or tv shows count?</div>
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Do you act differently around the person you like? No, just being myself</div>
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Are you one of those people who hate crying in front of others?Yeah</div>
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How would your parents react if you got a tattoo?They wouldn't be happy</div>
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Why did your parents last yell at you?I don't remember</div>
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Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay?No</div>
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Are you lying to yourself about something?No</div>
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Have you ever kissed someone with the first initial K?Nope</div>
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Are you happier now or three months ago?About the same! Life is good.</div>
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Can you have more than one best friend?Yeah</div>
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How many pairs of Converse do you own? None</div>
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What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?Milk</div>
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Do you have a bestfriend?I have several close friends.</div>
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Why are you happy?Because life is grand.</div>
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Have you ever gotten a 100 in a class?No</div>
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How’s your heart lately?Pretty good</div>
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If someone told you they’re interested in you right now, what would you say?It depends on who it is</div>
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Do you follow your head or your heart?Both mainly my heart then my mind</div>
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When was the last time you cried? I don't remember</div>
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Do you think the last person you kissed is amazing?Never been kissed...yup</div>
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If you could have one wish right now, what would that be? Go to San Diego and surf.</div>
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Your plans for tomorrow?Watch Conference</div>
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What's your midde name?Rose</div>
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Do you prefer Italian or Ranch salad dressing?Italian</div>
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Do you have an ex?Yes</div>
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Still miss them? No</div>
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Last time you saw snow?The other day</div>
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Who was the last person you were under a blanket with? My sister, slumber party</div>
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Do you like to cuddle?Yes</div>
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Do you like your life as of now?Love it</div>
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What were you doing 20 minutes ago?Filling this thing out.</div>
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Did you kiss or hug anyone today?Yes, hugged my lil brothers</div>
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What color is your hair?Brown with some highlights</div>
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Whats the last movie you watched?Some hallmark chick flick</div>
Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-20092050243562845272013-09-18T13:50:00.003-06:002013-09-18T13:50:56.711-06:00Be True To Who You AreMany people these days are hesitant and scared to be true to themselves. Some of the reasons may vary. They want to fit in with a certain group or they may be afraid that they may be judged.<br />
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You are created to be yourself. Not anybody else. You are the best person that can be yourself. You have 2 choices. You can either be the worst of somebody else or you can be the best you. Which one would you choose?<br />
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People just ask you to be true to yourself. Regardless of your lifestyle, religion, personality, your goals etc... They love you for being you. By showing your true self may be the answer to somebody's prayers. You have the talents and gifts that can help people here on earth. That is why you are so important. You are worth it. Don't let people have you think otherwise. Keep smiling, keep shining and be true to who you are.<br />
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Since I love music so much, here are lyrics to one of my favorite songs. This pretty much sums up everything.<br />
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Who You Are by Jessie J.<br />
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I stare at my reflection in the mirror<br />
Why am I doing this to myself?<br />
Losing my mind on a tiny error<br />
I nearly left the real me on the shelf<br />
No, no, no, no, no,no</div>
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Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars<br />
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing<br />
It's okay not to be okay<br />
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart</div>
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Tears don't mean you're losing<br />
Everybody's bruising<br />
Just be true to who you are</div>
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Who you are, who you are, who you are<br />
Who you are, who you are, who you are<br />
Who you are, who you are, who you are</div>
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Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?<br />
I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah<br />
The more I try the less it's working, yeah, yeah, yeah<br />
'Cause everything inside me screams<br />
No, no, no, no, no</div>
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Don't lose it all in the blur of the stars<br />
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing<br />
It's okay not to be okay<br />
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart</div>
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But tears don't mean you're losing<br />
Everybody's bruising<br />
There's nothing wrong with who you are</div>
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Yes, no's, egos, fake shows like whoa<br />
Just go and leave me alone<br />
Real talk, real life, good luck, good night<br />
With a smile, that's my home, that's my home, no<br />
No, no, no, no, no</div>
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Don't lose who you are all in the blur of the stars<br />
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing<br />
It's okay not to be okay<br />
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart</div>
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Tears don't mean you're losing<br />
Everybody's bruising<br />
Just be true to who you are<br />
Yeah, yeah, yeah</div>
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When I arrived home, I had no idea what was going to happen. I feared of what people would do or say when they found out I came home. It wasn't easy. I have great leaders, family and friends to support me to get back on my mission to San Diego. The second day I got home, I got a calling in my ward. I was called to be a Youth Sunday school teacher for 17-18 yr olds. I was at first skeptical about it, but I loved the people I taught. I loved every minute of it.<br />
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I was instructed to simulate the missionary schedule as close as possible when I came home. It was easy for the first week, then things started to change. Not going to lie, it was super hard to be home. I just wanted to go back to the mission. I doubted and questioned myself whether I would be able to handle going back on the mission. I was lost and confused. I then realized that I didn't have a lot of faith. For Faith and fear don't mix at all. Then that's when I knew I had to work on having faith in Jesus Christ and let Him guide me towards the right direction. For Jesus Christ knows the way and knows better than me.<br />
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I have been blessed in working with sister missionaries on the USU campus. I helped teach people about the Gospel of Jesus Christ and see how people came closer to Christ. When I helped the missionaries, it regained my desire and "fire" to go back on the mission. It really has been a blessing from Heaven to work with Sisters' Wunderli, MacMillan, Kruetzer and Campbell. All of them have become really close friends. I can't thank them enough.<br />
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I also got the calling to be a worker in the Utah Logan Temple. The feeling to be inside the temple is incredible. That is when I feel the closest to Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. That has been the biggest blessing of all for me.<br />
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As I was contemplating whether I wanted to go back on the mission or not, I thought of my vision statement of the kind of missionary I wanted to become. My vision has to do with Live. Laugh. Love.<br />
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Live: Live in such a way that is pleasing unto God. Live for the people that you are teaching so that they may feel the Holy Spirit testifying to them the truths that are being taught.<br />
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Laugh: Laughing is the best medicine. It relieves stress and pain.<br />
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Love: Love your mission companions, other missionaries, Mission leaders, the Lord and those people who you come in contact with. Love others so that they may feel the love of Christ through you.<br />
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The past 5 months have been quite the learning experience. I learned how to rely on Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ in all things. I learned how to fully humble myself. I learned how powerful the Atonement really is. Let Jesus Christ enter into your life. Let others help you. For no one can go through life alone. I know that Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ loves your with an infinite amount of love. He loves us all equally.<br />
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And I am happy to say that I will be returning to my mission within several weeks. No set date yet. I got my clearance from both of my doctors and church leaders to return very soon. I love the feeling when I triumphed over the hardest trial I experienced.<br />
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Live. Laugh. Love.<br />
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Love,<br />
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Laurel Greathouse<br />
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Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-2144576641983023362012-09-18T13:03:00.001-06:002012-09-18T13:03:45.578-06:00It Will All Be Worth ItHey everyone! Welcome! Some of you may know that starting tonight, my life will change. A start to a new chapter in my life. Tonight, I will be set apart as a full-time missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I am set to serve in the California, San Diego Mission for the next 18 months to share the message of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Yes, I am nervous and scared, because this is something out of my comfort zone. But I am excited for the new adventures. It will definatly be a sacrifice. I won't be able to see any of my family and friends throughout my whole mission, but I know blessings will come in my life through my service and sacrifices. <br />
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I can't thank my family and friends enough for what they have helped me with to get to this point in life. They are my life saviors. I wouldn't be the person I am today if it wasn't for the examples they have set for me. They have lifted me up when I was in a deep hole of despair. They have shared all my joys with me. <br />
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Nothing brings me greater joy than knowing soon I will serve the people who reside within the San Diego Mission. But most importantly, I am excited to serve the Lord by doing His work which is to share His gospel. I know that this experience will make me a better person. Yes, there will be up and downs, but in the end, It will all be worth it. Until we meet again. Love you all.<br />
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Love,<br />
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Laurel Greathouse<br />
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LIVE LAUGH LOVELaurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-64895177957498318922012-09-10T08:53:00.002-06:002012-09-10T08:53:34.695-06:00Happiness in Family LIfeThe family is important not only to society and to the Church but to our hope for eternal life.<br />
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(Preach my Gospel page 32) <br />
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It says in the proclamation to the World: <br />
Happiness in Family Life is most likely to be achieved when founded upon the teachings of the Lord Jesus Christ. Successful families are established and maintained on principles of faith, prayer, repentance, forgiveness, respect, love, compassion, work, and wholesome recreational activities."<br />
I would like to talk about some of these principles that contributes to happiness in the family.<br />
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1. The first one is faith. Faith in our family begins with trusting our Heavenly Father and His promises.<br />
Elder Dallin H. Oaks says, "As children of God, knowing of His great love and His ultimate knowledge of what is best for our eternal welfare, we trust in Him. The first principle of the gospel is faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, and faith means trust."<br />
Act with faith; don’t react with fear.<br />
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2. Second is prayer. D&C 10:5<br />
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President Thomas S. Monson states, "<br />
Perhaps there has never been a time when we had greater need to pray and to teach our family members to pray. Prayer is a defense against temptation. It is through earnest and heartfelt prayer that we can receive the needed blessings and the support required to make our way in this sometimes difficult and challenging journey we call mortality."As a people, aren’t we grateful that family prayer is not an out-of-date practice with us? There is no more beautiful sight in all this world than to see a family praying together. There is real meaning behind the oft-quoted ‘The family that prays together stays together.’ <br />
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*I have a funny experience to share. So when I was 13 yrs old, my family were headed back home to California from our vacation. We were around Baker, CA when we had to fill up the gas tank. My parents didn't want to pay like $2.50 in Baker, so they kept on driving towards Barstow, CA. They were hoping we would make it to the next gas station. It didn't happen. The gas tank was empty. So here we are parked on the side of the freeway in the heat. So my parents decided to say a prayer. I remember my mom started to say the prayer and she busted up laughing just because of how bizarre the situation was. I just remember sitting there waiting to find out what we were going to do. And all I remember was just playing the Gameboy and hearing one of my sisters complain about how she was going to miss American Idol on tv. She didn't care that the gas tank was empty. So my dad and I started to walk along the side of the freeway towards the nearest gas station. With big semi-trucks zooming past by within 20 feet of me and dad. This whole time I was having a prayer in my heart that I wouldn't get hit. We walked about 50 yards before a man pulled over on the road and gave us a ride to the gas station. Just from this experience I know prayers are answered. <br />
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3. Third, love in the family. President Dieter F. Uchtdorf states: "<br />
Because love is the great commandment, it ought to be at the center of all and everything we do in our own family, in our Church callings, and in our livelihood. Love is the healing balm that repairs rifts in personal and family relationships. It is the bond that unites families, communities, and nations. Love is the power that initiates friendship, tolerance, civility, and respect. It is the source that overcomes divisiveness and hate. Love is the fire that warms our lives with unparalleled joy and divine hope. Love should be our walk and our talk." <br />
Always tell your family you love them. Don't assume that they already know.<br />
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The greatest joys we experience are in family relationships. The joys come from putting others first before ourselves. That is what love is.<br />
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4. Fourth is compassion. Compassion means to feel love and mercy toward another person. It means to have sympathy and desire to relieve the suffering of others. It means to show kindness and tenderness toward another. The Savior has asked us to do the things which He has done, to bear one another’s burdens, to comfort those who need comfort, to mourn with those who mourn, to feed the hungry, visit the sick, to succor the weak, lift up the hands which hang down, and to ‘teach one another the doctrine of the kingdom’ <br />
When life seems tough, home can be a place where we <br />
find love, compassion, and warmth. Within our family, we feel reassured that someone understands and cares how we feel. And the compassion we witness and experience at home inspires us to be more compassionate to others. <br />
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5. The fifth one is doing activities together. Families that play together stay together, especially when their play is uplifting and wholesome. Family vacations, holidays, birthday celebrations, and other activities build strong bonds within the family.<br />
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*I know the saying, Families that play together, stay together is true. There is another family memorable moment I like to share. When I was about 6, my family decided to go camping for a mini vacation. I remember being really excited to go. We set up the tent and then it started to rain the whole time we were there. My excitement just dropped, because I loved to explore. I didn't like being in the cold. So I remember playing Uno with the family majority of the time in the tent. And my mom kinda demanded my sisters and I, "You will enjoy our time here." This camping trip was one to remember. Even though it rained the whole time, spending time with the family made it a whole lot better.<br />
Nothing is better than creating great memories with our own families. Those are the times where we can grow closer as a family unit.<br />
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Elder Robert Hales said,<br />
<br />Strengthening families is our sacred duty as parents, children, extended family members, leaders, teachers, and individual members of the Church. Make our homes a safe place where each family member feels love and a sense of belonging. Realize that each child has varying gifts and abilities; each is an individual requiring special love and care.<br />
He then listed some ways oh how we can strengthen our families like serve together, pray together, read the scriptures and having family home evening. <br />
I believe the key to strengthening our families is having the Spirit of the Lord come into our homes. The goal of our families is to be on the strait and narrow path. 2 Nephi 31:18. How great are the blessings we may receive by being on the strait and narrow path.<br />
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The word, "Family" means a lot to me. Being part of a family is wonderful. It means you will love and be loved no matter what may happen in life. Families are always there for each other. They are there to lift you up with the hard times and share the joys you experience while here on earth. Families grow together and stay together. Families are forever. <br />
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A Family Is Like<br />
© Nicole M. O'Neil <br />
A Family is like a circle<br />the connection never ends<br />and even if at times it breaks<br />in time it always mends<br />a family is like the stars<br />somehow there always there<br />families are those who help<br />who support and always care<br />A Family is like a book<br />the endings never clear<br />but through the pages of the book<br />their love is always near<br />A family is many things<br />with endless words that show<br />who they are and what they do<br />and how they teach you so you know<br />but don’t be weary if it's broken<br />or if through time its been so worn<br />families are like that-<br />they're split up and always torn<br />but even if this happens<br />your family will always be<br />they help define just who you are<br />and will be apart of you eternally<br />
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I love the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I know The Book of Mormon is true. I know families are eternal and can be together forever. I know that Heavenly Father has prepared a way for us to return to live with Him again. I am grateful for my own family who have helped me to get to this point in life where I will become a missionary. Nothing brings me greater joy than knowing that I will soon serve the people in San Diego and be an instrument in the Lord's work. I have a testimony that the Atonement is real. I know Christ lives. With Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father in our lives, there is no need to fear. I know Thomas S. Monson is a prophet of God and what he says comes directly from the Lord. <br />
Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-52071519026660728242012-09-02T22:48:00.001-06:002012-09-02T23:25:16.600-06:00Happy Like JesusToday during church, we were talking about Jesus and what He has done in our lives. A girl was sharing this book called, Happy Like Jesus. It brought much perspective of how a happy man He is and what brought Him happiness in His life. I like to talk about two attributes about Him that really stuck out to me. They are serving people. And loving all people.<br />
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I learned throughout my life that Jesus Christ is the perfect example of selfless service. He dedicated His whole life to serving others. How incredible is that? He performed many miracles to others and taught many people about the word of God. <br />
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Jesus Christ is also the perfect example of loving all people with a perfect love. He loves us all equally. Whenever I look at a painted picture of Christ, I can't help but look at how welcoming and loving He is.<br />
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I have been raised in a religious family all my life. My parents always taught me about Jesus. It took me awhile to find out for myself if Jesus was actually real or not. It is hard to explain the different experiences, but I know He is real. I know He is always there for us. I know He is always there to help us every single day. My relationship with Him has grown over the years. I am grateful everyday for His loving kindness. There is nobody or anything that can ever convince me to deny Him. I know He helps me everyday to become the best person I can be. It is very humbling and such a blessing to have Him in my life. Knowing that Jesus Christ is real has changed my life for good. He is the reason why I get up every morning and do my best in whatever I do. I do it for Him. He gave me so much. I am forever grateful for Him. May we all recognize the love of Jesus Christ for all of us and be grateful for Him in our daily lives. There is no need to fear about anything with Jesus in our lives. :)<br />
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LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE<br />
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Love,<br />
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Laurel GreathouseLaurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-31515206278846495032012-08-19T10:41:00.001-06:002016-04-10T09:33:49.244-06:00Sisterly LoveThis blog is going to be a little different today. I will be writing a portion. Then I will have 2 guest writers. Which will be my 2 sisters. We are very close to each other, so each of us will describe the other 2 sisters in our own words.<br />
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Alison (The one on the left in the picture) is my "unoffical twin." She is hilarious when she is really tired. She might come up behind you when you are not looking and when you turn around, there she is just smiling at you. That is when you know she is really tired when she starts to do funny things. She is the dancer in the family. She makes me look bad when she dances. She also loves to play the piano. She is the sister that will text me 5 minutes after we end a phone call and to see what I am up to. If we are separated, we will find a way to talk everyday. Also, she has a really funny happy dance. You will feel special if she does it for you. She is my little big sister (She is older, but I am 6 inches taller than she is). She is a fast runner. She claims she can beat everyone at hand wrestling. She loved playing store when she was little. She always played the cashier which was her dream job. She is kid-lover. She has so much patience with them. Now she is fulfilling her real dream job by being a preschool teacher. She is one of the most loving people I know. She will always be there for you. No doubt. She is my twin.<br />
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Heidi (The one on the far right in the picture) is quite the entertainer. She acts. She plays the flute. She sings. Lets just say she is musically gifted. She loves to dance in the car. People look when we pass by, but Heidi doesn't care. She is always in for a good time. I swear she has 20,000 different laughs (ok, maybe 7 laughs). Her laughs are often funnier than the jokes that are being said. It is just really hilarious. She giggles/laughs basically after she talks. :) She is really smart. The smartest out of all of us. She got her Bachelors degree from BYU-Idaho. Then later graduated with her Masters from University of Arizona. She loves to write. She loves everybody she is around. She has a great sense of humor. She loves everything about nature. She used to write plays when she was little. Basically spin-offs off of disney movies. Somehow she always made me have the male role. What a loving sister she is. She loves her family like nothing else. She is double-jointed in her fingers and arms. Maybe someday she will show you if she hasn't already. She is a great sister and friend. She will always be there for her family and friends. No doubt about it.<br />
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Laurel is known to be the tomboy and sports girl in our family. She has been on the AYSO soccer team and several basketball teams in the community and high school. She loves sports so much that she used to wake up at 6 in the morning just to watch ESPN sports. I used to get upset because I missed my Saturday morning cartoons while she watched ESPN. Even though she loved sports, she loved theater as well. She has been in choir and also helped back stage in play productions. Laurel and I have this special “twin” bond with each other. We are 15 months a part, but we always knew we were supposed to be twins. Many people in our family and at school would get us mixed up because we looked a lot alike and were around the same height. Eventually, Laurel grew much taller than I am, and people still get us mixed up today. Laurel is an awesome little but “big” sister and I will never trade her for anything <br />
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Heidi is the oldest girl and child in our family. She always loved to be in theater. At Orem Elementary, she has been in small productions such as “Scrooge” and “Alice in Wonderland”. In high school, she was involved in many of the high school play productions such as “Our Town” and also played the flute in the play “The Sound of Music.” Heidi and I are very close! We always text or call each other every day and can talk about mostly anything, especially boys. Heidi is known as “Giggles.” She loves to laugh and can laugh in many different ways. I am so grateful that she is my sister! She is a great example to me and love to spend time with her.<br />
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What comes to my head about Laurel is sports! I remember when we were little, she watched ESPN Sportscenter. She did not want to get up early during the week, but on weekends she would get up around 5:00 am to watch sports! She was the ultimate tomboy! She would always wear something sporty and for Halloween she would wear boy costumes. Some of those costumes were a Ninja and a Firefighter! She even did not like to play the girl Barbies; she would always play the boy Barbies aka….Ken!…..heheheheh. <br />
One current memory is watching Eight Simple Rules with her! That was always fun and cracked me up! We also went to play miniature golfing and she beat me! It was a hot day and lots of bees were around, but we got snow cones, which totally made up for it! We both got half Tiger Blood and half blue raspberry! Yummy! She is awesome and I am going to miss her when she goes on her mission, but I know she will do great! <br />
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For Alison:<br />
The best memories I have with Alison is talking about boys! I always got excited to tell her my boy stories and she would always talked to me about her stories. We had fun conversations about boys-whether we met a wonderful guy or thought they were “pigs”….lol. When I was in Tucson, we talked to each other like everyday. If we missed a couple of days, it was weird. <br />
Some funny memories with her is about jokes. We have a joke in the family that she doesn’t get jokes. Even though most of the time she gets them, we still joke around that she doesn’t get them…..heheheheh. Even though Alison has moved away to Pleasant Grove, she still comes to visit and I have visited her there. I don’t know where I am going to be when I find a library job, but one thing I know, we will always keep in contact!<br />
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Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-22411850712697304272012-07-24T14:26:00.002-06:002012-07-24T14:26:37.948-06:00Childhood MemoriesI thought I would share with you some of my childhood memories! :)<br />
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1. When I was the age of 2 or 3, I got into my parents car and somehow made it roll backwards out of the driveway.<br />
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2. My oldest sister always wrote these plays and made me be in them. Somehow I always ended up being the Male role...<br />
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3. When I was in the 2nd grade, my older sister Heidi who was in the 5th grade wanted me to catch her as she was hanging upside down from the tree. She landed in my arms and rolled out so fast, her face landed on the trunk of the tree. Wasn't funny back then, but now we think its hilarious.<br />
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4. I used to play with bugs and worms. And I used to chase other girls with worms too. Yes, sounds mean, but it was fun at the moment...haha.<br />
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5. My everyday attire would consist of sports apparel of some sort. Whether it was a jersey, hat, shoes etc...<br />
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6. I pretty much convinced myself that I would be a Professional Soccer Player or WNBA player. Didn't happen.<br />
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7. One of my favorite memories was when I was at a family reunion. My cousin and I would sneak off early in the morning and go to the lake and watch the sunrise and skip rocks. Later we fell asleep in the hammock and woke up after everybody was already up.<br />
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8. In the 6th grade, I joined the City league for soccer. Started off as a midfielder then ended up being goalie. My team went to the playoffs and I was chosen as one of the two goalies for the All-Star team. Most memorable game was when my All-Star team beat this other team who were twice our size via penalty shootout at the end of the game. I made the last save. It was awesome.<br />
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9. My favorite pair of shoes were of Jurassic Park. They lit up cool colors.<br />
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10. Basically, everybody that knew me can confirm I was a tomboy. Hated curls, wearing pink, loved playing in the dirt and being outside pretending I was a ninja of some sorts.Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-42861148433726133492012-07-15T11:17:00.001-06:002012-07-15T11:17:38.909-06:00You Just Never KnowA lot has been happening in the past little while. I only had about 2-3 semesters left to graduate with a BA in Sociology from BYU-Idaho. I had to differ several semesters due to some circumstances. To be honest, I wasn't motivated at all with my major after my first year. In my eyes, I just wanted to graduate quickly so I can go and serve a church mission. While I was at home differing a semester, thats when I realized that Sociology wasn't for me. So I tried to change my major to Exercise Science. They rejected my petition. So that left me in a hole. What was I wanting to do now? Finishing the Sociology degree was out of the question. Then the school changed my major to General Studies without my permission. So thats when I knew my days at BYU-Idaho were over. I didn't want a General Studies degree. It wouldn't help my future career goals one bit. Then I started to look at different schools to transfer to, so I can study in my field that I wanted to be part of. I was literally lost and confused. Where was I supposed to go? I had no idea. Then the thought of serving a church mission came to mind. But I ignored it, because I wanted to finish school first. Then the thought kept on coming back stronger than ever. I thought to myself, "No way. Not yet. Its not my time to serve a mission yet." Then again, came back even more stronger. Then I finally had the urge to pray about and to see what happens. I always wanted to the Lord's will in my life. Thats when I got the answer. This is the time for me to serve a full-time mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. Its amazing to me how my desires and the Lord's will for me goes hand in hand. Its a perfect fit. The last piece to the puzzle. I learned in my life, that my timing in things are different than the Lord's timing. The Lord knows us in every way possible. He knows of our sorrows and happiness. He is always near even though you can't see Him. He is always there to help us. He wants us to succeed. He would never lead us astray. I learned how to put God and Jesus first in my life. I do everything for them for they are the ones that gave me gifts and talents to become what I have wanted to become. <br />
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Now starting on September 19th, 2012, I will be a full-time missionary. I am so excited. I chose to serve a mission, not because I was told to, but only to serve the Lord and the people in the California, San Diego Mission. I am willing to put my life on hold and set everything aside to serve. I have been blessed in so many ways that I see it fit to give 18 months out of my life to serve. I will always glorify in Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and Their work to bring souls unto them.<br />
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Live, Laugh, Love<br />
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Love,<br />
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Laurel G.Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5516420755316184832.post-84251848381586889392012-06-23T19:26:00.001-06:002012-06-23T19:26:14.249-06:00Random FactsI'm kinda bored right now, so I thought I would share some facts that people may or may not care about me. Here it goes:<br />
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1. I absolutely love musicals. Mainly to see men who can sing and dance!<br />
2. I was inducted into the Thespian National Club in high school. (For acting)<br />
3. I love sunrises and sunsets.<br />
4. I don't talk much in large groups, because I like to hear what people have to say. But I talk more if it is more on a one on one basis.<br />
5. Soccer is my favorite sport. The USWNT and RSL are my favorite teams.<br />
6. I love watching scary movies. It brings adrenaline rushes.<br />
7. Speaking of adrenaline rushes, I love extreme rollercoasters. 6 flags is now on my top 2 favorite amusement parks.<br />
8. I will be serving a mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints starting in September.<br />
9. I was part of a Comedy Improv group at BYUI. Its like Whose Line is it anyways tv show.<br />
10. People often mistake my ethnicity. Such as, hispanic, native american and polynesian. I'm just caucasian blessed with tan skin. ;)<br />
11. I'm the tallest girl in my family. I'm 5'11 1/2.<br />
12. I have an unofficial twin. My sister Ali is a year older than me, but we are meant to be twins. We look a lot alike and think a lot alike. Only difference, I am 5 inches taller than her, yet people still get us mixed up.<br />
13. My career goal is to become an Athletic Trainer/Fitness Coach for a womens soccer team.<br />
14. I always wear a special ring everyday. Got a good tan line on my finger now.<br />
15. The #15 was my All-Star Soccer team number, but not many people know that since I wore a goalie shirt over it.<br />
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Live, Laugh Love<br />Laurel R. G.http://www.blogger.com/profile/08489613840933689372noreply@blogger.com0